Submitted by: David Cuthbertson (Houston, TX)
For some time I had pondered how the Lord Jesus could be wholly absolute for God, yet at the same time be so balanced in His humanity. And even more so, I wondered how I could live such a life as a Christian today. I had a certain concept of absoluteness – that if I were absolute, I would go to every prayer meeting no matter what the circumstances, I would read a certain number of Life-Studies daily, regardless of whether or not I had slept for several days, and I would preach the gospel to a certain number of people every week. With this in mind, I then struggled with the concept of being balanced. My idea of being ‘balanced’ was in reality ‘compromised.’ I thought I needed to go to a movie after a meeting so that the two would balance each other out and I wouldn’t be considered too “spiritual.” Given these concepts, I obviously had a hard time seeing how one could be both absolute and balanced at the same time. I mistakenly thought that all I needed was an adjustment in my view of being balanced to make everything clear.
I realized, however, through some sharing by Brother Ron Kangas that not only my concept of being balanced, but even more so my idea of absoluteness was far from the truth. We are not absolute to any thing in and of itself (e.g. going to a certain meeting), or a particular schedule (reading so many messages or chapters a day), but to a Person, to Christ Himself alone. With this realization all the problems, considerations, quandaries, and situations are solved. We don’t have to figure out how to be absolute or balanced. We are simply one with the Lord in our spirit, and follow His leading in every circumstance. If our wife is giving birth at the same time as the prayer meeting – “Oh Lord, what are you doing right now?” (Probably going to the hospital, but check with Him first!) If there is a young person who has a sports race on the Lord’s Day morning at the same time as the prophesying meeting – “Oh Lord, what are you doing right now?” If your son has a playoff game on Friday night at the same time as the home meeting – “Oh Lord, what are you doing right now?” We simply live to the Lord in all of these matters.
In this way we will have a living that is both absolute and balanced at the same time, because we are absolute to the Lord and thereby allowing Him to live His balanced life through us. Indeed, such a living will supply the saints with life, rather than kill them. If we live according to our natural concept of absoluteness, we are in reality living according to a set of natural laws we have made for ourselves. Consciously or subconsciously, we will apply these demands to the other saints, and either we will be discouraged or they will be discouraged when they are unable to live up to the standard we are holding them to. Although we may be able to tell heroic stories about how we went to the meeting despite our house being on fire, our natural zeal will condemn and kill the saints. In our natural absoluteness, we may even despise another’s missing the meeting to take care of a backslidden member, when in reality they are the one living to the Lord and being one with Him to care for the member in need.
Therefore to be absolute simply means we live to the Lord, not anything else. We give Him the first place in all our circumstances and in all the decisions we have to make. Rather than making decisions according to our natural concept of what we “should” do, or according to a reading schedule or a promise we made to the Lord to go to a certain meeting, we simply take Christ as our Head. We are not beholden to anything but Christ, and we should not live to anything but Christ – regardless of what our natural concept is or what others may think. Our natural concept of goodness and absoluteness falls far short of the person of Christ. Our being absolute to the Lord will then issue in a living that is perfectly even, fine, and balanced, because we are one with, expressing, and living the life of the only balanced One in the universe. The conundrum is thus solved – we are balanced by being absolute to the balanced One.